Ionrock Dot Org

First off my apologies for the absolutely ridiculus and plainly stupid title. I feel the need to vent off some thoughts, and yet, I feel I can't say a word. So instead of rambling on, I will take a minute to discuss my simple and unimportant plight.

The essence of this problem stems from a questioning of one's own self understanding. Sometimes, you want to say something, but that "thing" you want to mention just isn't clear. Part of the lack of clarity has to do with knowing yourself and realizing your imperfection and inexperience. Speaking out against or for something simply because you have some "feeling" just doesn't make a lot of sense when you can't even articulate your thoughts to yourself! You know there is something to be said, but since you can't say it to yourself, you figure whatever it is must not be good to say. The real gotcha here is that in these cases, without understanding the over arching issue or principle, it is impossible to go out on a limb and take a chance in the name something you believe.

Essentially, I can say that I am frustrated and tired. I cannot though say why, which is extremely frustrated. I think in the mean time I plan to just put my head down and see what happens. The worst that can happen is I gain some crazy zen knowledge that I found peace admist chaos or something equally meaningful that would make for a great fortune cookie.